Breakfast: a large mug of Stash chai green tea with a drizzle of honey and a splash of soy milk. My body feels all out of whack these days, and somehow my subconscious has convinced me that more and more liquids will help flush out whatever is polluting me.
It’s to-do-list season. I’ve neglected my academic responsibilities long enough this semester, and now I have to buckle down and actually get it all done. Schoolwork is obviously a serious conflict of interest these days. I don’t know why final papers and exams have to correspond with packing up everything you own and emotionally preparing yourself to say goodbye to dear friends who are moving on and graduating. Perhaps I should have prepared for this inevitable in-between state of looming academic and social responsibilities, but I find myself each day shocked and somehow paralyzed by the sheer amount of work I need to get done. Luckily, it’s not a matter of simply getting it done; I know I can complete the work, but rather it’s a matter of ignoring everything else that is going on, regressing into a hermetic state of being for a couple days, and working my hardest to produce my best work.
But instead I sit here, relishing the relatively early morning. The smell of rain is wafting through the open windows, green tea eases my aching body, birds have been chirping since 5AM, and the sun is trying to break through the pallor of gray skies. Oh, and a fat man playing a ukelele is assuring me that it’s okay to think, “what a wonderful world!”
Okay, onward and upward. It’s time to scratch through some items on my to-do list before class so I can rationalize feeding my social needs tonight.
